ahleah.

2012-02-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

SOOOOOOOO, the week started off so hectic! on monday i had a presentation i was so nervous about! but alhamdulilah, i did well! on tuesday had OC LEC QUIZ 3 which im obviously gonna fail. yay, sucks to be me yaaaa. after lec quiz had jap role play and french oral. yeapp, right after another. in a row. mmhmmmm thats just the way TP rolls. had cell b quiz today, which duh, wrote tons of nonsense. i dont even know why im telling you guise this.

AS has this anonymous rose giving thing for valentines and i hop ANL/ITAS BOY sends me one *faints* lol speaking of him, havent seen him in ages! shall dress presentably tmr since its thursday! 70% chance of seeing him YAY. ok i should stop this sounds creepy.

hope i can meet zhaffy on friday and watch a movie/whtever with shahyen after. hmmmmmmm sounds like a plan?

2012-02-01T20:59:00.003+08:00

another update earlier than expected, just a note for february.

hi february,
whaddup? our friend january was okay with me, i think she was just making up for all your other friends that were mean to me in 2011. i had tons of fun in january and also got some serious work done. i just wish things could get easier, february. like how it was. can you do that for me? pretty please with a diamond ring on top?

please let me have a clear head and focus on my school for the main exam. i'll try to stop procrastinating too, i will. its just that i get so distracted easily! so how bout a pact? you be nice and i'll crown you best month for 2012. sounds like a plan?

looking forward to the end,
me.

ok, told you guys alrdy i need psychological help. i'll end of with pictures from january. xoxo (WHICH REMINDS ME GOSSIP GIRL IS GEORGINA SPARKS?!)

2012-01-29T23:29:00.002+08:00

ok this is just a rant after so many weeks and you can skip it altogether. don't say i didnt warn you.

WHAT I MISS

PRIMARY SCHOOL!
i miss eating the 60cents nasi lemak that makes me full and happy. plus the 80cents pizza~ i miss drinking justea peach(or smth else it was orange packaging) and lepaking in school. i DONT miss acting like a bigshot gangster HAHAHAH that one cannot make it one lahh. i miss shafiq mathirah munirah haziqah and how close we were! i miss sending love letters to shahyen in class and secretly staying in school so late just to watch him in soccer training.

SECONDARY SCHOOL
i miss nothing much. just the fact that life was easy and i seem to be breezing thru my grades. only Allah knows.

now in poly i feel like everything is SO OVERWHELMING that the slightest thing can upset me or make me break down inside. i dont like crying in front of others, i dont like showing im weak. and having adhe in hospital for more than six months has trained me how to keep everything in and let it out when im in my room alone. hais.

LIFE MOVES ON GUYS

p/s srsly just skip this post. it doesn't even make sense and the paragraphs dont link.

p//s what i really miss is being with s alone and enjoying each other's company instead of being apart because of work/school/other nonsense commitments etc etc.

2012-01-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

if there's one thing my past taught me, it's being aware when you're about to get lied to or cheated on or made a fool of. something particular happened to me and S today and altho i might not show it, it's a big deal to me. i honestly dont understand why the hiding if there's nothing wrong. I SWEAR THE EXACT SAME THING HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE. and im pretty sure i dont want it to end the same way. sometimes i wish boys could feel what we feel, to know what its like to be in our shoes. how certain things hurt. cause right now, i just dont know.....anything anymore.

2012-01-07T02:32:00.012+08:00

Me and shahyen finally went to Night Safari!

It's not focused but i LOVE how i was looking at him and our hands around each other's.

i think i was telling him 'siapa last sampai, babi' HAAHAH

click here for more!

ok lah shuddup nobody cares.

Not abandoning my blog just yet!

I'm done with the first week of school and have to get used to waking up early again noooooo! Term tests results are out and.... meh.

Bought a few stuffs from F21 for school tho and i have to stop spending my money!!! Just spent over 150buxx to perm my hair!! yes yaayyyy i finally did it! but i dont know, quite....... neutral about the results :/ but Shahyen luvs it so im okay with it!

what else......

oh! TP open house must come k! im not involved actually HAHAHA no point :< wish im more active as how i was in secondary school. miss those times!

ok lah bye.

naturally boring.

2011-12-27T20:23:00.003+08:00

Ted: But the most important expression of all…
(shows picture of a very angry Robin)
Barney: Whoa…
Ted: Flared nostril ridges, wide unblinking eyes. If you ever, EVER, see this face, Barney, run. And don’t take a picture of it, she will punch you… and you will cry… for the third time… that night.

[My Robin impersonation]

I'm really pissed at what happened this morning. i got so excited, all dressed up and made up only to be let down with a disappointment. i hate when these things happen URGH NMDIJMSJAKM CIFJMLKJ N yes it makes me want to type random alphabets from my keyboard. unlike robin, guns, hockey and emperor penguins do not distract me so i went home and sulk.

today went by fast and i did what i did yesterday - nothing. so....TADAAAA i started blogging again! i'll prolly stop blogging after this post. or not. i'll try to make updating my blog regularly my new year's resolution. honestly, i dont know why it's on my resolution list either. it's like people stopped blogging because of tumblr, twitter etc etc. not that they suck or anything. also, it gives haters more reason to hate.

SO HERE IT IS HATERS- STALK ME ALL YOU WANT IF IT GIVES YOU PLEASURE.

PEACE OUT (peace out? yes i'm this lame.)

ps: daddy bought me a new cam so expect lots of pics!